Obituary, by Movie Night

Obituary

by Movie Night

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1.	The Doors Are Closing 04:46	lyrics
You were once a boy just not thinking clearly thought these pills would cure and distort all your thinking a monday afternoon lunch time close to two smiling as the sunshine wrapped into a noose sitting in a room posters on a wall asking questions making answers thought you were the one to call home (break) menthol smoke inside danger in the clear higher chance of hate inside cancel out the fear of dying alone of making a new home of feeling pressured no sense in this hope growing up in hatred Losing sense of will a black crow he speaks to me to choke him out and grow different from the rest lost in my labyrinth killing time by wasting time forgot to send a message hyper active children swaying in the breeze not one day I think of us its getting hard to breathe (without you) (break) never letting go never letting go seeking something else to fill the gap of hope light inside my cave beer inside my veins hope is lost and so am I maybe once I wake I won’t see the darkness I won’t need to cope Just as I expected once I told myself I won’t now you are a girl surrounded by your peers I can’t see or hear but all i taste is tears seeing soundly seeing soundly seeing soundly seeing soundly
2.	Objective Suicide 04:02	lyrics
I wake up every morning knowing I don't deserve to breathe my dreams don't stay consistant hope one day I don't open my eyes I never call or write to those I love I try to stay clean cause nothing helps me cope straying away from killing types drink away a sleepless night killing time cause ending life creeps closer every time i blink why did i do the things i grieve one more death for every week losing friends off every drink i wont stand for it no more fall asleep on any seat i hope one day i wake up dead testing life any chance I seek shaking and seeking sweet release i'll wake up new, a different room no more hospital beds i'll love more often than i did in this life Maybe next time I won't be forgotten
3.	Black Is the Warmest Shade 03:15	lyrics	buy track
Chaos reigns on certain fates Searching of a distant plain fullest power restrained justified the healing pain I am the queen of horror lord of guilt and cries born a neck in a collar Nothing but despised I am a whore in pain I cannot be tamed leave my soul to blame torn apart to shame Silence brings me peace Black around my eyes goddess walk of shame Hatred to mankind Palest moon, a walking tomb looking for the time of her life greed and gore, a latex whore lust in the air tonight I am a whore in pain I cannot be tamed leave my soul to blame torn apart to shame
4.	I Never Knew I Loved Myself Til My Head Hit the Concrete 03:52	lyrics
Chairs stacked high in every row caution to traffic incoming, slow resistance in my blood, IV inserted crying and screaming like a circus as everyone watches and laughs whats the chance of me getting out a merry go round of guilt and booze is what everyones thinking, about (SERENITY PRAYER) MY GOD I WANT IT ALL TO BURN DOWN CANT EXPLAIN IM NOT WELL GOD I HATE THIS HEAT AND GOD I MADE MISTAKES BUT DONT YOU DARE SAY YOU WERE AWAKE AROUND MY TIMES OF DYING HEALTH SELFISHNESS HAS PRICED ITSELF BURN MY BRIDGES LIKE MY BIBLES FALLEN CROSSES IN MY HOUSE I WANT TO TAKE BACK FEELINGS OF WHEN I HAD REGRETS MAY GOD CAUSE THIS EMPTINESS HELP ME NOW BEFORE IM DEAD IF YOU CANT WAIT FOR ME THEN I’LL JUST HELP MYSELF THE KILLING JOKE BEHIND THIS ALL IS GOD HAD KILLED THEMSELVES
5.	Papercut Wrists 03:12	lyrics	buy track
barb wire wrists remind me of my chains strapped to this chair honesty brings sick and alone seven stories high white walls, no doors i’ve lost my mind always sick, to my stomach starved to the bone tempered anger building walls of stone wish this nightmare would stay clear take me god before the end gets near
6.	Acceptance: Knowing Love Will Never Leave 06:31

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A concept album about struggling being trans, finding romance, suicide, and recovery. A whole year and a half of dedication. A year and a half for myself. Discovering endless possibilities through this hell scape. A wanderer in the shadows of god. A less bitter sweet moment of silence from the outside with chaos building within. A project for myself. RIP AKON.

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released April 20, 2019

track 5 sampled by uboa
track 6 lyrics also written by zoe
All tracks recorded in mt tabor national forest in Portland, Oregon

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